Friday, July 9, 2010

One year ago

I really wanted and had every intention to post this yesterday, but we have been having a few nights with a certain little baby not wanting to go to sleep, so here we are today.

On July 8, 2009 a little baby girl was born on the other side of the world in Yangxi, China.
For reasons that we shall never know, her biological parents decided after four days, they would not keep her.
On July 12th she was found (I will keep the location private) and taken to the SWI. She was deemed healthy and for the next 6 months they took very good care of her. Her file was send to the CC@@ to be placed for international adoption.
This is where our paths crossed.
And she became our daughter.




















I have thought a lot lately about her biological parents. Do they realize it has been a year since her birth. Do they wonder how she is. Or do they even care.
After given birth to a child myself, I could not imagine being in that position and not caring.
I would keep her in my thoughts daily, and would always hope that she would have a happy life.
I would like to think that is how they feel also, I would like to one day be able to tell her that they loved her, but since I don't know myself, I cannot and will try not to feed her a story that is not the truth. I don't really know what my answers to her will be, probably mostly "I don't know."
I hate that answer, and hope that I will be able to come up with something a little better for her, she so deserves it.
I did not mean for this post to become the downer that it has, so I will turn it around.
I want to celebrate the first Birthday of my baby girl.
You have touched a part within me that I could not begin to explain.
Oh how much mommy and daddy love you! We always will!
We love watching you learn and grow, even though we have only known you for a little over three months, you have blossomed into such a vibrant and happy little girl, and you are just so smart.
Happy Birthday Tessa Rose!
































































































We had her party last weekend, so yesterday we wanted to make her day special. We had cupcakes, and let her open her first China present. I bought gifts for her while we were in China, so she will get one special gift for every year up until she is about 18 years old.

She really got into the whole opening/tearing up the paper thing.










































































She liked the cupcakes, but she still won't just take a bite herself. That's fine by me, I will be glad to feed you sweetie, it's better for bonding anyway! She liked playing in the icing too!



















I just couldn't help but add these in here. She's just too cute!






































We just Love that little face!





Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Watch out!

So last week I took Miss Tessa for her check up at the adoption clinic. Poor little thing tried to be a trooper, but it was just too much, especially when the needle came out. They were very good, and just couldn’t get enough of little missy. Do I even need to say I am one proud mama! They are testing for a number of things, but most importantly, we want to see what if any shots we will need to re-do. I even got to collect poop for a few days! I have not heard back yet, but the results should start coming in soon. She weighed over 20 pounds, and is 30 inches long. I can’t get over how big she is. I never imagined that she would be bigger than our other two girls. We couldn’t turn them around in their car seats until they were at least 18 months old. Although the doctor said we could (he did stress not to push it) I'll keep her facing the back until I have no other choice. She's fine with it, she faces the girls in the back seat, so I'm in no hurry.

Anyway, getting around to the actual topic of this post; since the clinic was a good hour and 1/2 drive from our house, and seeing how I DID NOT want to take the other girls, I decided to go and stay at my parents house for a few days, and that way my mom could watch the big girls while me and little missy went for the appointment. So, to give you a clear picture, my parents live in the country. They have a good amount of land around the house, and the girls love to go exploring. Well, my parents retired this past fall, and since they stay at home a good bit more now, they have taken up walking down their driveway (they have a pretty long driveway) in the mornings for exercise. Well, they had told us that recently they have seen some snakes. Keep in mind they have lived there for almost 20 years, and I lived there for about 8 years before I got married, during which time we never saw snakes. Hardly ever anyway, I saw one right after we moved there, and it was only a little green snake that caught a frog.
So back to the story. The girls wanted to go walking the first night we were there, so we headed out. I told them to stay right with us, because Nana and Grandpa E had seen some snakes, so they did stay pretty close. They did not run way up ahead like we usually let them. About half way down the driveway my step father yells out "snake" and we freeze. I actually did not even see it at first because it blended in so well with the gravel and dirt. When I did see it, Lily was standing about a foot or two away from it. I have never been that afraid for my children's safety like I was then. I told her to come over by me, and she did not even see it at first either. It was not a very big snake, probably a couple of feet long, no more than three. And it was being perfectly still, their dog even almost stepped on the thing and it didn't move. We stood there for a few minutes debating what to do. None of us knew what kind it was, if it was poisonous or not. I figured if we all walked back to the house it would slither off into the woods, and would not be there for my step dad to get back with a gun. So, he took the two big girls to the house, told them to stay there, and got his gun. In the mean time, my mom and I stayed to watch the snake with Tessa. It would start to move and we would pick up a rock and chunk it at it, which made him stay still for a few minutes. By the time grandpa got back with the gun, the thing was almost to the edge of the woods. He only had to shoot once. Blew it's head almost off (sorry if that is too graphic for you) and now we were relieved. But, we still didn't know what kind of snake it was, so we left it there (wasn't going anywhere soon) went back to the house got our cameras, got in the car (too freakin hot) and went back down to take pictures. He kept saying that he would really feel back to have killed it, if it ended up not being poisonous. Well, later that night I went to go look up snakes in Alabama on the computer. I looked through the images, and saw one that looked like ours did. When I clicked on the picture to enlarge it, my mom saw the heading first.
Copperhead.
So it was poisonous after all.
Since this fun little adventure, I have been doing some homework, and have a few tips for anybody interested in learning how to tell a poisonous snake from a non poisonous one.
The head of a poisonous snake is diamond shaped. Meaning it is noticeably wider that the body. The only exception to this is the Coral snake.
Their eyes: Poisonous snakes have cat shaped pupils, non poisonous have round pupils.
Most poisonous snakes have little indentions (or pits) between their nose and eyes. This is to seek out prey. That is why they are also referred to as pit vipers.
After studying many, many photos. I think I could tell what kind of snake it is (poisonous anyway) if I ever run across one again.
And I can not stress enough at how well they blend in to their surroundings!
So for all of you who live in the wilderness, or who just may have woods nearby. The snakes are out this year for sure!
Here are some photos of the one we got, I tried to cut out any yucky parts, but there may be some, sorry to anybody with a weak stomach. They're not that bad!























































And just for funzies, the girls loved playing with Grandpa E's hat!



















Monday, June 28, 2010

Go Vote!














I just entered Tessa in a photo contest with P@rents magazine.

Please go vote for my little munchkin!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Little here little there

Well, we have been quite busy around here since school got out! I have not really had a chance yet to enjoy the summer, we have been on the go just about non stop.
I do not have time to write the long post I would have liked to, but to catch you up on all of our doings for now I will just post pictures, and give a few details.
Madilyn lost her first tooth right before she got out of school!



















She also just celebrated her sixth birthday, she is getting to be such a big girl!






































A few weeks ago we headed down to the beach. We lucked out and made it there before the oil.

























































































































Tessa loved the beach! Not the sand so much, but the rest, she digged.































































































































I wish I could claim to have built this sand castle, but I can not.









































Of course the girls preferred the pool!


































































I did build this one on our last morning there.














Our last photo from Seagrove Beach!














I do have another really exciting post coming up! Hopefully I can get to it soon!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Tessa at home

I'm sure I don't have much time to post, so I will try to quickly get this one out there.
Our little angel is adjusting VERY well. She was such a trooper on the trip home, it amazed both DH and I, she only whined a little bit the entire 40 something hours back.
Upon meeting the girls she put on her poker face that we see whenever new people are around. We saw this face quite a bit in China, since we were out and about all the time, but behind closed doors she's a totally different baby. It did not take too long though before they were making her smile, and laugh by being their crazy, funny little selves. Now, she just kicks and screams when she see's them first thing in the morning.
It is very obvious that she is attaching nicely to me. She loves her daddy, and will go to him just fine, but she keeps an eye on me at all times, and if she is tired or hungry, he just will not do, she wants me! And I LOVE IT!!!
I know that the bonding can and will take some time, but she is showing many signs that we are doing things right, I am actually reading ANOTHER book on attachment at the moment, and am really excited to find out that she is already developing what this book calls "Family Skills."
We decided to put a twin bed in her room, and I sleep in there with her every night. She always starts out in her crib, but whenever I go to bed, or if she wakes up, I just can't help it, I want her right beside me. I know this is helping with the bonding too.
Well, I hear her starting to stir a little so that's it for now, but I will leave you with some photos.